Arie Belle Blog

As I said previous, I will be using my new website to blog as well as showcase my photography, so click this link  and go check out my websites new blog, please comment and like! My most recent blog post is about Gratitude because I will be at work for thanksgiving. with love, Arie

I am sitting here in the back yard of my grandparents house reflecting on my life on this beautiful October afternoon, just finished watching General Conference  and now I'm listening to all my hipster indie music while writing this blog post. Technically this blog post is a day late and I was planning on writing something yesterday but I got caught up in a bunch of things, like buying myself a pair of glasses and watching Conference and then hanging out with my best friend Madeleine and then we did a photoshoot (the photos will be posted very soon) and my glasses are super hipster and perfect for me. I'll attach a photo at the bottom of this post as well to show off my good looks. Now enough random chatter, lets get on to this blog post. 3 years is really not that long of a period of time in the long run. But my 3 years is also such a long time and so many things can happen in 3 years time. For example 3 years ago yesterday (10/4/11) something crazy happened in my life. Som...

I thought I loved him. But really I only loved the Thought of him. I was empty and alone, searching for some sort of happiness for some type of escape. And there he was, so enticing and charming. He drew me in. I thought he cared about me, that he was really there for me. But we were both just using each other for momentary happiness some fake feelings of bliss. I was addicted to the way he kissed my neck and caressed my skin. He was my drug of choice my ecstasy, my high. But every night  I was alone again starring at the ceiling with that same old empty feeling. There was no love between us. Just a poisonous Lust, the everlasting search for momentary happiness. I wanted love so badly that I settled for its counterfeit. He left me broken with no hope of finding true love. But I've learned a thing or two since him. I don't need him. I am not alone. I am worth it. I come from a society that  tells women we ...

Well Life for me has been pretty darn busy lately and a bit hectic and emotional on top of that. I completed my training for Wilderness a little while ago and I start my internship on the 13th of August which from right now is only two days away! AH! In the time I had free which was from the 3rd of August until the 13th of August I decided to drive myself to Kalispell Montana! I haven't been back to Kalispell since I graduated high-school there back in February of 2013, so it was a crazy drive down memory lane! I also spent about a day in my car if you add both days of driving which was about 11-12 hours from Provo to Kalispell, so in all I did around 24 hours worth of driving all by myself! I had a lot of time on my hands while driving to reflect on life and listen too all my favorite songs. The thinking to myself part was probably my favorite part of the long drive, because when else do you have a full 11-12 hours completely alone to think with no one else to bother you(other the...

Sometimes you forget about your past for awhile, you forget that so many things used to be wrong and crazy, and you forget how miserable life used to be because life is so sweet now.  But then there are those moments when you reach into the basket and fish something out  that in an instant brings you back to a moment,  to a feeling, to a memory that happened over two years ago.  I reached into that basket and out of it I pulled an old notebook A notebook that I wrote nasty letters to my parents where I made lists of the reasons I should run away and where I blamed them for my problems It was a notebook filled with hate and with confusion. Oh how blind I was, I was traversing down a path of stupidity, ditching my own family for another without thinking twice. I was being brainwashed by my lover, who would tell me what I should say and why I should leave He made me think my parents were the enemy How could I have believed him? ...

That night I slept better then I had in weeks, For the first time in days I hadnt stayed up worrying, crying, and thinking about how bad everything was. That night I felt peacefulness in my soul, I felt at ease.  Six a.m. the following morning I awoke, I awoke to two strangers in my door way, and my parents hiding in the hall behind them. Someone said to get dressed quickly. I did as I was told, I was not afraid of them, even though you would be. There was an older man, and a mid-twenties girl The man was ex-military, either navy or marines  The girl was his daughter.  I guess "kidnapping" was a family business to them. The girl stayed in the room while I got dressed She told me not to bring anything important with me, I did anyways, I brought my engagement ring, the matching necklace, a journal and a pen.  and that was all I had as I walked out my front door never to re...

This is an essay that I wrote for my Focused Inquiry class at VCU. Read and comment below New Beginnings By Arianna Brown Two years ago I would have never been able to imagine going to an amazing art school in Richmond, Virginia; I never thought I could be happy and confident in myself like I am now. Two years ago I was lost and in such a dark and depressing abyss; my dreams of the future were clouded and nearly non-existent. I was trapped in a unhealthy relationship that was tearing my life apart in all directions. But here I am today, in Richmond, Virginia attending college at one of the top art schools in the nation and living alone in my very own house. No one would know what I have gone through by meeting me for the first time. I am so happy and optimistic about life now, and you can’t see the pain in my eyes anymore. I try not to tell a “sob story” about my past—I don’t want sympathy from anyone and I don’t want anyone to think of me any differently because of it, bu...