For caleb, The only one who reads my blog
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I can't believe that it is already November! There is only one month left until it is 2014! Wow! Time goes by soo fast! Last year this month I was still in boarding school... oh how the times change. I am so thankful for this year, because 2013 has been freaking amazing, I've done so much this year and I am so glad to be where I am right now with my life. :) I was bored one day in my room, and I pulled out my camera and took pictures of my face... like normal. I'm such a selfie whore :P But I use my selfies as experiments of good lighting, editing, exposure, shutter speed and all that jazz. So that when I take pictures of other people I know how to make them look better, since I'm just a self taught hobbyist when it comes to photography.
I Feel Stuck
I feel stuck as if my body has been struck by a thousand pound truck. Numb to the world around me I want to be present, but I can't move I can't get up. My body is there I can see it. I watch, my chest slowly rising and falling timid breaths they are. In a dream like state I feel as if I am drowning in a wave of sadness emptiness loneliness. It crashes into me washing everything else away my smile, my happiness my laughter. and turns me blue, With self-doubt, and depression. I want to be happy I cry but I can't. I feel as if no one cares about me even though I know some do. But they are so far away no one is here here with me no one can reach me to comfort me from the fear. no one can catch me when I fall, and wipe away my tears I feel as if inside of an internal prison. Yelling from within but you can't hear me. You don't know that I need you. And I don't know how to tell you. I don...
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