Arie Belle Blog

The dark is closing in, I can feel that familiar tightness in my chest. Its like I'm stuck in the ocean and its pitch black in the night With dark grey clouds covering up the moon casting shadows across my body. The fear is creeping in. Its starting to flame inside, about to rip me apart. Everyone who used to hold me seems to have forgotten me. Everyone I counted on to hold my hand, they won't even think to call or to chat. Their just gone. Gone in the night. My mind starts wandering, going back in time. Recalling all our old memories All the times we made each other laugh and smile. But where have all those times gone? You once told me we wouldn't lose each other. We wouldn't lose each other, Ever. But now your out there, living free and having fun while I am alone, with no one who wants me No one who loves me, At least not the way I need to be loved. I miss you, I need you, I've tried, but you wont respond.

There is no chance No way at all That you can get me back We had a past But that's just it, its the Past I still care, I care too much But I've let you go there's no coming back. You put me through hell and back I have forgiven you, But I have not forgotten what you did to me You hurt me, I have yet to finish healing. You broke me, you tore me down. So why do I still care about you? Why do I still think about you? Why do you still haunt my dreams? Then all of a sudden you show up in my life again. For a just a moment, But you are there in front of me and you tell me all the mistakes you are making all the shit you've gotten yourself into But why would you tell me? Do you want me to save you? Like I tried, and tried before? Because your not a friend of mine, Your not part of me anymore. So don't try and weasel your way back in Because it is never happening again. We can never be friends We can never be together What we had is gone W

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 Its been more then 2 years that I have had this blog, but its been two years with the ariebelleblog.blogspot.com, but about 3 years altogether with the first year with another name. Blogging is a hobby of mine, Its not like I am internet famous or anything, and I probably view my blog more then anyone else does, but honestly I love sharing things from my life and not know who will see it, with the hope that maybe it was something that helped someone that day, or lifted a spirit or inspired something.  My blog has about 14,000 views, which is crazy! I am very proud of that number. Because for the longest time it was under 1,000 and then all of a sudden it seems like people randomly started stumbling onto my blog, which I am totally okay with! So much has happened this last year, and I haven't been very good at posting things on my blog lately.  Lately I've been thinking a lot about death, because my Grandfather on my mothers side is getting to that point where we are e